嗨。

不长不短的两个月，我知道的，忙的不是人而是思绪，要真的说应该是即毕生的怕输前兆吧。

有那么一天觉得得忙着跟身边的一群人狂欢，有那么一天觉得我该丢掉该忙的忙去忙着尽一尽义气，有那么一天觉得自己被世界遗忘， 有那么一天忙着难受着义气是三小不是每个人都跟你说义气， 有那么一天碰了觉得自己不会不想也不要的东西，有那么一天我让你我都难受， 有那么一天我早上是积极向上的鲁夫晚上却是见光死的情绪化鬼，有那么一天觉得自己疼惜自己真的很好，有那么一天只想吃着泡菜拉面Magnum冰淇淋寿司卷汽水窝在床上看电影睡个潇洒的大字。

对不起，我有那么那么多的那么一天。哦不，其实只是需要一个重新开始。没有你妳他它的开始。

嘟——2011

好像每次来个电脑大扫除，都会有不一样的惊喜。

然后你明白虚张声势也是一种自我保护，

不需遮掩，不需反驳。

加油，女孩儿。

我只是得了不能上学且想开心又勉强开心的病。

告诉你我是情绪澎湃，言不由衷，腰疼半死，极度嗜睡，抱头狂搔。
怎么办？

开学抑郁综合症，我恨你。

活了二十一年可爱早就弄丢了，这大概是四五岁吧，唯一觉得自己特可爱的时候。

并不想老掉牙似的说着小时候多好多单纯，虽然我真的很想。

怎么可爱的事老是回忆不起来，却总是回忆着可悲的事？

那自我到底是被噩梦吞噬了，还是被狼给啃了？

还是有一天就潇洒地说：走吧！暂时抛弃这世界一切要做该做必须做为别人为自己做的事，寻找自我去吧！

然后也许就带着那神奇宝贝一起启程吧！

幸运地话就找到了，再回来这世界看看，原来我活过的世界就是这样啊？

你说吧你说吧，这篇的结局我写不出来啊。。

然后我发现有人写到：

I believe you will find a better life somehow and feel better about yourself. The road may be harsh sometimes but you have to be strong and keep yourself awake. No pain can last forever. Good luck, mate :)

you could be happy.

给你给我给世界。晚安。

jobless but aint hopeless

I just feel like blogging coz i found no way out, maybe till now i still cant even differentiate whats wrong or right? my past was a failure, but i really try hard for not repeating the fault, am i still a problem? or am i look like a problem?

k..stick to the topic, the day was..my jobless day, lol, it's actually the last day of my half a year internship,so i did a mini celebration with my girls.Between this post gonna be so 'jumpy', coz imma compound three farewells at once..

she become more mature n mature, no more teenage girl look, i feel old~ T^T

very candid cozy look by chien the blur queen~

and more candids below,lol

okie, LES much.

and i dunno why, but girls just love mirror anywhere

and next here we go to_

TRAY CAFE~

love the whole ambience of it <3 div="">

WISHES :)

we were having fun with the free gift from kfc. U can do any doodles u want on the pad..

and time for writing some new year wishes~

ignore my lame wishes~lol

we plan to write on the higher part of the board where nobody can reach~lol

we all act like a drunk person that night, get HIGH like nobody's business, guess three of us too emo that night.

未来会更好～ :) 

see the ambience~let's go EMO BABIESS~lol

next farewell is about...

me and chien planned to do a handmade canvas to our lovely aunty aka chien's house owner.

we did this bcoz chien gonna leave soon.

i just did the writing part, LOL

chien did the painting part,LOL

i aint that PRO,sorry :(

trust me u will love aunty's house, mirror everywhere, i mean serious, its like every corner of the house. 

dah~ she is the aunty~~:) she is 70 plus years old. believe that? LOL

she is kind and friendly and yet very very thoughtful, u always can learn from every conversation with her.

and last my girls gathering~its like a farewell for me and celebrate the returning of chloe~ XD

gossip session

love the way that we blended together like crazy

<3 div="">

after through all these times, i feel like now is just a new start for me, so new year resolutions on next post maybe?

ineedtobehopefulineedtobehopefulineedtobehopefulineedtobehopefulineedtobehopefulineedtobehopeful!!

PEACE OUT~

i feel infinite.

just watched a movie that i can relate to most of it.I mean for the first time i feel like i can relate to three characters at once.
'We accept the love we think we deserve.', this is my fav line.

Not gonna mention what's the whole story about,coz i am here sharing some movie quotes like i always do.
'So, I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we’ll never know most of them. But even if we don’t have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them.'

'And there are people who forget what it's like to be 16 when they turn 17. I know these will all be stories someday. And our pictures will become old photographs. We'll all become somebody's mom or dad. But right now these moments are not stories. This is happening, I am here and I am looking at her. And she is so beautiful. I can see it. This one moment when you know you're not a sad story. You are alive, and you stand up and see the lights on the buildings and everything that makes you wonder. And you're listening to that song and that drive with the people you love most in this world. And in this moment I swear, we are infinite.'

and this scene is the best part!

“I just need to know that someone out there listens and understands…” :)

You know what you want, you're just afraid to admit it because you're afraid of failing. Screw that. Screw your fear. You know what you want, which is a hell of a lot more than most other people. So don't be afraid or ashamed. Just go on and get it.

It's not a big deal. I've never been good enough for anyone, anything.

It's true when they say old habits are hard to break, but you'll always remain nothing but my most tempting mistake.

It's never going to end because it never really began, i just too stubborn to forget,but yea..without struggle there's not progress. 

I FEEL SICK

SO EMPTY

SO ORDINARY.

i am sick of keep avoiding all human contact, i am sick of keep remaining in the comfort of my own loneliness..EMO ATTACK*

stop!! i am too young to be this SAD.

i am fine,just..my emotions are all over the place, trust me, i feel bad on it too, i just cant control. :(

i just discovered a song, replay mode since last night..for me the lyric is more like a song from me to me, aww~ weird explanation* or should i say its from me to leerie? -..-

 i am not good as i want to be..

keep telling myself things can change,things can CHANGE!

i need to set free myself~FLYYY~~LOLL~ 

some said,to live, u must lose the fear of being wrong.

guess i just afraid of the failure, just like before, the old me.
reviewed some of my previous year's posts,
i found some of it sosososo immature, LOL, and even this post, T.T

miaoooo~~ crappingggg

ok, i am done

kthxbye.

Dear, blur queen.

okie, though i am blur enough, but she is the NUMBER ONE BLUR QUEEN, me?...consider number two la~

dah~celebrated her birthday, glad that she is happy that night :) 

i am glad that i have u in my life, who always tolerate with my bad temper sometimes.. :(  be there listen my stupid stories and watching me cry.. lol! 

i was kinda bad mood that night, so i just standing there watching them play around like a big kid !

always wanting to play this, but the timing just so wrong that night...blahh~whatever~

STRETCHING*

arghh, I feels like crapping more, I slept for a whole day, I am having insomnia right now,  I am now listening breaking dawn soundtrack which make me so...depressed..lol

its my fav song apart form A Thousand Years.. 

feel it..just feel it..

i wanna back to be cold..to be cruel..so may be some shits wont be able to happen again..blahhh..i should sleep now! ciao~

因為無能為力，所以順其自然。
不悲過去，非貪未來，心系當下，由此安詳。

Rewind,2012

I KNOW I KNOW~it's a bit too late to update this post, like SERIOUSLY. innocent face* Everytime i wanna update this i feel sleepy then ends up bang into my bed.
i found myself perfectly 'cute' in this pic! slap* so let it be the first pic! lol
2012 was a tough year, or..just a 'so so' year for me, not gonna mention how i suffer from some really bad lucks, some little monsters just bite me for no reason..ok..maybe there's a reason, everything happened for a reason..just wanna make a 'THANK YOU LIST' on this post..since it's a rewind post, so black & white photos?? :D
first place goes to PAPA TANG & MAMA TANG, my veryveryvery main supporters, endless loves to them~  :3

and my stupid sis as well! ok, i know i look mature than her, but in fact she is my elder sis.blah~

and my two little notty devils, thanks for waking me up with ur sharp voices everytime i fall asleep, so i can continue my bloody assignments.

thanks for boxes of assignments which make me who i am today~lol

thanks for my very first prize from KTS blah blah..design competition, thou i am kinda blur on my final design.. it's still an encouragement for me :)

and thanks to designer qian, coz i realize that 'formal modelling' just not my thing, HA! but i do enjoy it.

and thanks to sophia fat ass, more than words, u know it.. :) hope u got a soulmate in aussie~ngehehe~

and thanks..i got a blessed 21 birthday with my spp group. :)

coursemates aka spp

but seriously can i have another free hug event for my next birthday?? I MISS THOSE TIMES!!

and thanks to my sweetie aka high schoolmate for the gift, i sleep with haru haru everynight, so puffy  fluffy~~ :D

my sweetie pie aka spp leader, blah! nothing much to say, u should know it too. :)

dah~~ my forever blur and cute chien the king~lol! thanks for let me bully over & over again since 9 years ago~ XD

and thanks for my current internship, i tasted the stress of be a designer by dealing the real clients. blah~~

and lastly, BEACH! thanks for let me fall for u over and over again in 2012. miao~ MY STRESSFREE PLACE~
it's 2013 now, i still don't have a real feeling that it's 2013 now. Lol
but i just gonna move on! besides, my blog officially steps into 6th year!! tadaaaa~~ :D
seems like everybody are busy planning for their new year resolution, guess i gonna do it after chinese new year? lol , i still on lazy and holiday kind of mood.. WHY AM I SO LAZY LATELY?? GAWRRR! but i do have some planning actually, hope it works! :) no pain no gain, i will just go for anything,any stories that gonna happen in my coming life! God bless :)
still, wish u guys a HAPPY 2013 YEAR!