懂了

以前的我太過懵懂， 不懂歌詞在說什麼， 現在腦中忽然響起這旋律， 去youtube重新搜尋了這首歌， 一切就那麼—— 懂了。 ：）

u just nothing at all.

i just celebrating my LIFE everyday everywhere. :)

ello~~i'm back...reactivate my blog coz i realized tat it's reli unworthy to deactivate it jus bcoz of  some ''unworthy people'' .. yeah~ i shun mention it's ''SOME'' not exactly  ''THE ONE'' ...SO?? the conclusion is i cant end myself such pathetically !!

i still live my own, and my life is much more better without u ~TRULY~ :)

ya..i can officially step out from those effing moody thingy..

i know my mood is like roller coaster, and i dun reli know when it gonna start acting up again..

but once fallen, i wont let myself get down like that anymore..

i shun say... stupid twice, betrayed twice, and three shun never come anymore ! 

and FATE will find a way out...so just keep calm, right? 

i still have the only U_Lord~

:)

墮落。厭倦。一個背叛者。一群放棄者。
你。。在看我嗎？
笑吧。

我嗎？

我真的只想做個單純的好人。。

不做誰的誰誰誰。。

他們嘴裡的誰誰誰。。

你很累，我也很累。。

所以就結束吧。。

所以我就保持沉默吧。。

所以就一個人墜落吧。。

所以再一個人爬起來吧。。

所以就繼續撐下去吧。。

我嗎？

我喜歡開開玩笑，

讓你我的生活開朗起來。。

我一直都是這麼活過來的。。

我嗎？

我偶爾耍耍個人浪漫。。

我嗎？

我偶爾耍耍情緒。。

我嗎？

我偶爾罵罵髒話。。

我嗎？

我偶爾吶喊寂寞。。

我嗎？

我偶爾耍耍孤傲。。

我嗎？

我偶爾犯犯大錯。。

我嗎？

偶爾很想愛愛這樣不堪的自己。。

這樣的我 你們接不接受呢？

我嗎？
不停地爆破，不停地矛盾，不停地自愈，不停地再讓自己狠狠地摔個稀巴爛！
我嗎？ 我愛我嗎？ 你愛我嗎？ 主， 您還愛我嗎？

我嗎？

為什麼會變成這樣？

我嗎？

也許從某年某月某日的某幾秒某地點某感覺，

讓自己叛逆，讓自己不停地摔個稀巴爛，讓自己麻痺，讓自己完美地偽裝，讓自己不再是自己，
我嗎？
快窒息到連自己的影子都快看不見，
我嗎？
想灑脫點可是怎麼都夠不著，
我嗎？
我在這裡寫的是我嗎？

我該感謝你嗎？ 我該感謝我嗎？

我——鄭宗莉。

我——LEERIE TANG CHUNG LEE。

我只是這些嗎？

i'm sorry

i'm sorry if i wasn't interesting enough..so that u choose to run away from me , coz u get bored on me..

Sometimes I'm not sure what I want from you or what you want from me. Sometimes I think we are just as lost as we ever were, and we're not finding anything new, we just keep circling the same landmarks because we know what they look like and they are easy to spot on the map.

thanks to make me down. I'm officially collapsed now.  

keimedon!

BIG BURST !!!

kay..i'm seriously training myself not to care...

so dun pull me back to the dark hole again & again..

fuxk off !!!

ya !! i shun blame myself..coz i am the STARTER !!

and u just a GAMER !!!

shit leerie !! u just hurting urself over & over again !!!!!!!!!!!!!! stupiateverinthefuxkingworld!!!!

end of flirtationship..

recommended song recently from THE SCRIPT_'BREAKEVEN'

I love the 'Janice & Sonia' version more than The Script version, sounds lovely, soft and released...

The Scipt version just too ''happy'' to me.. =.= lolz.. i love sad song, coz i am emo queen.. 

i cnt stop singing 'i'm falling to piecessssss'~~~~~~

i enjoy most on its lyric, sounds so TRUEEEEEEE ever !!!

it's about one still in love while the other one's leaving..how sad~ :(

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing,
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in,
'Coz I got time while she got freedom,
'Coz when a heart breaks
no it don't break even.

Her best days will be some of my worst,
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first,
While I'm wide awake, she's no trouble sleeping,
'Coz when a heart breaks
no it don't break even, even no.

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Coz she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks
no it don't break even, even no.

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love
while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces,
(Cuz when a heart breaks
no it don't break even)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain,
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, oh.
'Coz you left me with no love, with no love to my name.

i'm falling to pieces..while watching ur life..already changed without me.. :(

i am not clever but i am clever in my own way..

k..

there's always a question to me: why u study design? so wasted, man ! 

my papa & mama asked it b4..

bro & sis asked it too..

tons of frenz asked it too..

even my design lecturers asked it too..==

but i never asked it to myself..

i never thought that i am a clever girl..

a good result doesn't mean anything..

it just a prove that u're hardworking..

i am studied hard b4 that's why i got a good result..but it doesn't mean i am a genius or whatsoever..

i know it's wasted to give up so many good opportunities like scholarships or further study those thingy..i disappointed my parents.. may be..

but please... i seriously loving design now..

thou i am suffering a REALLY REALLY DOWN POINT of my life now.. but i think this might be a test from Lord..i hope i will be the survivor in the end.. :) 

being too dramatic recently..i should stop this kind of life bug now... :/ 

i try really hard to step out from the darkness slowly now..so someone dun pull me back again..plz..

i think my smiley face had lost about one month.. many frenz been scared by my really POKER FACE..== sorry about that...

my mood swing like roller coaster.... :(