i just celebrating my LIFE everyday everywhere. :)

ello~~i'm back...reactivate my blog coz i realized tat it's reli unworthy to deactivate it jus bcoz of  some ''unworthy people'' .. yeah~ i shun mention it's ''SOME'' not exactly  ''THE ONE'' ...SO?? the conclusion is i cant end myself such pathetically !!

i still live my own, and my life is much more better without u ~TRULY~ :)

ya..i can officially step out from those effing moody thingy..

i know my mood is like roller coaster, and i dun reli know when it gonna start acting up again..

but once fallen, i wont let myself get down like that anymore..

i shun say... stupid twice, betrayed twice, and three shun never come anymore ! 

and FATE will find a way out...so just keep calm, right? 

i still have the only U_Lord~

:)

墮落。厭倦。一個背叛者。一群放棄者。
你。。在看我嗎？
笑吧。

我嗎？

我真的只想做個單純的好人。。

不做誰的誰誰誰。。

他們嘴裡的誰誰誰。。

你很累，我也很累。。

所以就結束吧。。

所以我就保持沉默吧。。

所以就一個人墜落吧。。

所以再一個人爬起來吧。。

所以就繼續撐下去吧。。

我嗎？

我喜歡開開玩笑，

讓你我的生活開朗起來。。

我一直都是這麼活過來的。。

我嗎？

我偶爾耍耍個人浪漫。。

我嗎？

我偶爾耍耍情緒。。

我嗎？

我偶爾罵罵髒話。。

我嗎？

我偶爾吶喊寂寞。。

我嗎？

我偶爾耍耍孤傲。。

我嗎？

我偶爾犯犯大錯。。

我嗎？

偶爾很想愛愛這樣不堪的自己。。

這樣的我 你們接不接受呢？

我嗎？
不停地爆破，不停地矛盾，不停地自愈，不停地再讓自己狠狠地摔個稀巴爛！
我嗎？ 我愛我嗎？ 你愛我嗎？ 主， 您還愛我嗎？

我嗎？

為什麼會變成這樣？

我嗎？

也許從某年某月某日的某幾秒某地點某感覺，

讓自己叛逆，讓自己不停地摔個稀巴爛，讓自己麻痺，讓自己完美地偽裝，讓自己不再是自己，
我嗎？
快窒息到連自己的影子都快看不見，
我嗎？
想灑脫點可是怎麼都夠不著，
我嗎？
我在這裡寫的是我嗎？

我該感謝你嗎？ 我該感謝我嗎？

我——鄭宗莉。

我——LEERIE TANG CHUNG LEE。

我只是這些嗎？

i'm sorry

i'm sorry if i wasn't interesting enough..so that u choose to run away from me , coz u get bored on me..

Sometimes I'm not sure what I want from you or what you want from me. Sometimes I think we are just as lost as we ever were, and we're not finding anything new, we just keep circling the same landmarks because we know what they look like and they are easy to spot on the map.

thanks to make me down. I'm officially collapsed now.  

keimedon!

BIG BURST !!!

kay..i'm seriously training myself not to care...

so dun pull me back to the dark hole again & again..

fuxk off !!!

ya !! i shun blame myself..coz i am the STARTER !!

and u just a GAMER !!!

shit leerie !! u just hurting urself over & over again !!!!!!!!!!!!!! stupiateverinthefuxkingworld!!!!

end of flirtationship..

recommended song recently from THE SCRIPT_'BREAKEVEN'

I love the 'Janice & Sonia' version more than The Script version, sounds lovely, soft and released...

The Scipt version just too ''happy'' to me.. =.= lolz.. i love sad song, coz i am emo queen.. 

i cnt stop singing 'i'm falling to piecessssss'~~~~~~

i enjoy most on its lyric, sounds so TRUEEEEEEE ever !!!

it's about one still in love while the other one's leaving..how sad~ :(

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing,
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in,
'Coz I got time while she got freedom,
'Coz when a heart breaks
no it don't break even.

Her best days will be some of my worst,
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first,
While I'm wide awake, she's no trouble sleeping,
'Coz when a heart breaks
no it don't break even, even no.

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Coz she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks
no it don't break even, even no.

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love
while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces,
(Cuz when a heart breaks
no it don't break even)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain,
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, oh.
'Coz you left me with no love, with no love to my name.

i'm falling to pieces..while watching ur life..already changed without me.. :(

i am not clever but i am clever in my own way..

k..

there's always a question to me: why u study design? so wasted, man ! 

my papa & mama asked it b4..

bro & sis asked it too..

tons of frenz asked it too..

even my design lecturers asked it too..==

but i never asked it to myself..

i never thought that i am a clever girl..

a good result doesn't mean anything..

it just a prove that u're hardworking..

i am studied hard b4 that's why i got a good result..but it doesn't mean i am a genius or whatsoever..

i know it's wasted to give up so many good opportunities like scholarships or further study those thingy..i disappointed my parents.. may be..

but please... i seriously loving design now..

thou i am suffering a REALLY REALLY DOWN POINT of my life now.. but i think this might be a test from Lord..i hope i will be the survivor in the end.. :) 

being too dramatic recently..i should stop this kind of life bug now... :/ 

i try really hard to step out from the darkness slowly now..so someone dun pull me back again..plz..

i think my smiley face had lost about one month.. many frenz been scared by my really POKER FACE..== sorry about that...

my mood swing like roller coaster.... :(

what cha say?

 

happy birthday... happy 7 years... :) i had no more to say coz i thk u got it..

and now even driving is a kind of stress to me..

the images of me died on accident juz pop up while i driving..

u just dunno read between the line..i am tired on waiting u like a fool.. but u still not realize it..u no need me anymore.. but i need u right here by my side...where r u?

coldest night ever..

 ...but everything sounds different anymore , i cnt even pick up ur call , coz i cried like mad behind it..

鄭宗莉。。你打算一個人撐到什麼時候？

do u know that how hurts is it? am i do something wrong to u ?

u make my day :)

♥

it just too sweet to have someone send u a lunch without expected while u're planning not go out for lunch... 

thx~~ sweetie~~ u make my day ~ :)

INSPIRATION is just around u ~

  watched a REALLY nice video from facebook which so called

WE'RE DESIGNER (just click it and take a look)

while i get stuck and tired on doing my work..

i accidentally saw this from a high-school mate who studied interior design too. 

it feels like GOD works on me.... :) 

i just so glad that everytime while i barely get lost of my initial passion ,

but still everytime i can find it back to me..with the help of my Lord...i think its time to retrieve back my relationship with Lord..sorry for getting far away from U..

but by the way i realize that how worse of my design work b4...i thk its time to get a new recovery of myself :/

i need some MINDSTORMING !! SUPER STRONG ONE !!!

i'm freaking hungry and gonna eat now !!

plus i'm so break now , one week of bread life, maybe? O.o

no matter what LEERIE STILL ROCKS ON DESIGN !!!! rawwwwwrrrrrrr ~~~~~ XD

u r so LOVELY..

i'm lovin' it ! ♥~

it cures me sometimes..

:)

''when the people who always used to cheer you up and make you laugh turn their back on you, it really sucks..Everyday will be a new challenge for me to face on my own. No one there to guide me anymore. Just me, myself and I. This will be something I’ll have to get used to from now on. I just find it easier to blog when I’m sad/mad/confused/etc than when I’m happy. Don’t you think I want to be happy all the time? I’m sorry, there’s just a lot of shit going on right now. There’s so much you don’t know about me.''

Strangers, again

everything starts with a very wonderful ''first met'' , and ends up with ''i get bored of this''.

i am a happy loner without anywho..

分離。距離。一場鬧劇。再見。
堅持和不堅持
到最後也不過如此。
我會好好過。。 :)

很喜歡這張自拍照。。不用三腳架也能拍出來的感覺~*竊喜*

看吧。。一個人也能做這樣的事。。

可想而知，前天的算命真的超不准。。

問題：我想知道我的未來。

算命者： 這兩張牌答非所問。

紅心A，先入為主的觀念——代表愛情

黑桃2，非常地兩極化

結論——以後會是靠男人吃飯的人，或是變成黃臉婆。

=.=

我的結論是算命不只是僅供參考，更是為了避免自己不想要的未來。。

從小到大爸媽都說我很獨立自主，所以靠男人吃軟飯這種事機率太低=.=

不過我不想太快下定論，

總言，

我會好好過。。

end of story...same ending..i just get bored of this..

everything comes with rules even a game..

its not about game over,

just i wanna quit..

tired to be a FOOL..

damai bitch..

my sunday outing_ damai beach...

with my dear~

i overslept at home which until 4pm...==

awake by dear who pressing non-stop on doorbell ..=.=

quickly put on short pant then rush to beach...

guess who??

since i juz wake up and freaking blurred~~== so juz let my dear to drive my car~~ she love ''danger driving'' too...i was like a mum keep nagging her all the way~~ =.=

my own made ''BUNNYPOOH''~~

 :)

 

XD

and guess what???? both of us climb over the gate just to save RM3 entrance fee~~~XD crazy~~~

coz of tis ~~i scratched my leg~:(

wearing dress for beach??? O.o

tadaa~~ officially a BEACH GIRL~~XD

tie up my superlonghair~~

and..HERE WE GO !!!! 

NICEY~~~

writing on beach is a MUST !!! =.= ( is it?? )

wrote : eat,pray,love for myself...

wrote: 我的愛情我作主for dear...XD

another crazy..

beach make me feels like wanna suicide....=.= lolz~

night falls....

a letter to beach or.... ???
Bottled-up feelings
Have you ever had something super important to tell someone, but for the longest time just kept it to yourself? And when you finally get the opportunity to, the words somehow get stuck and never find a way out?
It’s a shitty feeling.

as my last post mentioned...i go damai juz bcoz of nicky lee's song...

it make me feels like wanna throw tons of words into the sea..

i thk its kind of way to release my mood...or else i will burst up in the end... 

nearly fall down....==

finding a good position...

phewwwww~~~~~

act like MV character somemore~~ =.= lolz~~

i am not kidding!!! see~~got film director somemore ~~~ XD

decide to go back~~~ 

ending pose~~ =.= lol~lol~~lol~~~

bye~ i will be back~~ when i miss u... :)

indescribable..

addicted to this song over & over again..

it make me review back my sem 1's life...

dun knw why...the feeling juz kinda weird while i am listening to it..

indescribable...feels like so sad...or like a leaving song?? no idea..

 

go to damai beach yesterday...juz for throwing tons of word which no where to speak out... 

forget takes a life time..

thx for making me laugh when i'd almost forgotten how to..

maybe better this way between us..

u think so?