LEERIE'S DAY.. :)

my very 1st day of holiday_saturday..

plan to have a simply leerie day for myself..

so i decide to hang out alone...

i love leopard print.. :)

1stly, go to have a lunch _ fried beef black pepper rice which actually with no beef at all...== no more second time~byebye !!!

traffic jam all the way...coz it's a voting date for Malaysia....

lolz~~== no comment  on politics thingy...

okie...juz simply shop around at mall... and i found this singlet !!! m&m ~~so lovely...but ends up...i  no buy it coz not worth for such unreasonable price ==

received my dear's message ...she date me out on night... XD

 so...it isn't an alone day~~

go to her house for homemade dinner...

and she take me go to her ''NEW EXPLORED SECRET PLACE''~~==

HERE WE ARE~~

it's somewhere to see plane landing....(what she said =.=)

and luckily..we got spotted one plane landing....blurred...==

fuxking COLD man !!!! 

we are under a SUPER STRONG WIND !!!! messy hair~~

EMO-ing.......

act like a mad....totally a mad...=.=   leerie might be too stress...

love my camie's effect...

random shop at spring......there was an event for coming easter...

at Levi's shop..

her ''quotes'' always~~ ==

my new living style~ :)

actually plan to buy a shoe for myself...but i am so break now~~ :(

next~~go for supper~~meat ball porridge !!!!!!!!! XD

playing my new buy LOMO LENS while waiting our foodss...its some kind of wide angle lens...

the final effect of lens~~

back home at omos 1am...==

freaking tired....dun reli knw what i blog nw...blur...

ciao~~~~everyone...

UNEXPECTED..

one week holidays starting from now...

cnt back to hometown coz final is starting from now too ... :(

sad..i miss home a lot.. coz at home i am not alone ... :)

bro and little devilsss are going back to hometown today...

gonna stay at home alone tis few dayss....scary... :(

k....juz submit the design work  that suffer me for omos one month....so relaxed...:)

tis month supposed to be a unlucky & sad month for me...

mostly classmates are quit...juz bcoz of a uncaring lecturer..

many pp leaving me again...i am totally a SUPER SOLO GIRL...hahahahha~~~

:(

it ain't fun at all..

I HATE LEAVING ...

leaving is the worst thing in world..

k...big cheers ..leerie 

dun wan to turn it into an emo post again..

let's have a look at my design work... 

it's about to built a aid shelter for refugee

and it muz be ONE PERSON SHELTER~

i am so into tis project since the earthquakes has happened in Japan..

but actually i am dissatisfied with my final design...it is juz a design that followed what a lecturer expected and what her aesthetics ... but then now i can thk of many reasons to refute her... due to lack of time..i juz let it be like tis...=.=

 keep on reject ...keep on redraw... tat's so called DESIGN LIFE~==

 very 1st idea inspiration ~mock-up model..

2nd mock-up model

and now go to final design~~

i love tis part...a piece of folded exterior wall & window which can bcom open space area for refugee..

geometric roof structure which can be folded too....to bcom flat-packed.. :)

interior....hvt put it detailss..

after put in details...

storage area for refugee..

a long chair which can bcom a relaxing chair , bed , and sit for 4 pp.... 

make use of my stainless steel support for hanging clothes.... LOVE LIFE ~~ :)

BEHIND THE SCENES

i suffering a lot while cutting this strawboard to put it my modelss n presentation board all those....==

at 1st ...GREAT !! cut model till toe pun boleh get hurted....==

finally....finger get cut too....i was like wanna ''FUXKING BIG OUCHHHHHHHH'' at the midnight !! =.=

cnt reli drive now....bcoz of it...i nearly get into a serious accident while on the way back from sch...

emergency break on the way which scared other drivers....

my hands are dizzy all the way...is it a kind of phobia after accident... no idea...juz i reli hate driving since i involved an accident last year...all of frenz saying that my driving style totally changed..and i hate to sit beside the driver who love ''danger driving'' too...it make me feel so fuxking unsecure man !!! do u ever thk on my feeling ??? since u knw me ever had an accident b4...and still act like joking there...FUXK OFF tis kind of pp !! ==

kk...calm down...i gonna start enjoy my holidays..i have many to do list & to buy list... :)

kthxbye~~~

i feels like a FOOL all the time...

why am i end up so pathetically like this ??
This constant confusion you're giving. I don't wanna be the only fool again...

the changes..of u & me..

now i believe time can change everything..

now i believe distance can change everything..

everything are irreversible ..

no matter a broken friendship , relationship or whatevership..

including my stupid scratch on my face...painful & depressed all the way..

not obvious in the pic..but damn obvious in reality..

at last...get used to it..leerie...u supposed to be alone since at the very 1st beginning..
i am ok..juz a little bit not over u..and past..
see.. i still can smile like pic above.. :)

addicted to building blocks??

now is around 2.15am , try to finish up my bla bla bla design work+other assignments ASAP！！

so what's fun for u while u get bored on ur assignments???

FOR ME...

BUILDING BLOCKS !!!!!!!

and actually its my nephew's toy~ =.=

kk...i knw i am not a child anymore...but i used to love to play with it since i am young~~~MEMORABLE~~

and i thk it can improve my sense on building construction man !!! XD ( what a ridiculous reason ..=.=)

nice hah?? XD 

finished my technical drawing~~ and gonna move to next & next & NEXT !!!!

ciao~~

it juz a random post~~XD

Love life but not suffering ur life..

while life come to this___every-days got the same routine..WORK---> NO SLEEP---->REJECT--->REDO---->WORK----->NO SLEEP
and now it's  TIME to have some change !!!
tis kind of design life is truly bad..i mean i enjoying designing , i can sacrifice my sleeping time , i can accept the rejecting from u with a proper reason, but if someone not to respect ur work without listening to what ur whole idea , then it is truly SUCKSS !! and u r the one who is arrogant and refuse to change at all than us !!!!
how i gonna change???

yea~~~ my life routine start with blogging and facebook then juz WORK !!!
DESIGN SHUN BE FUN BUT NOT TORTURING !! AND WE ARE NEW GENERATION !! WE WANT TO OUT OF BOX !!! AND PLZ DUN TRAPPED US INSIDE UR ''STANDARD'' !!!! =--=

College life is getting SOLO~

 gonna be a SOLO QUEEN till the very end~~

ANTI-SOCIAL GIRL now~

or ''SOCIAL-ANTI'' ????

I LOVE BLOGGING ALL THE WAY :)

been lying at the bed for omos whole day , not reli into my design work..i get used to be a LAST MINUTE BABY~XD 

my stomach feeling better nw , no more *PUKE* ,

juz still suffering ''a while pain'' while eating food.. ==

one week of porridge life i thk.. == damnit !!!

juz read back my old posts on previous months & years...feels so GREAT !! :)

and getting clear what i pursue the most since from the very 1st ME !!

i love to get motivated while reading my posts ...tats why i love blogging and create a blog for myself...♥

RECENTLY ME...

try to not late sleep at night but choose to wake up early in the morning to start my design work.... SHITTY DARK CIRCLE + EYESBAG !!!! =.= sad*

like to be a EARLY BIRD~~~~~~juz to get more inspirations~~ :)
and last...juz wan to shout on myself_ no matter how suffering u r , DESIGN must be a happy thing to u always.. 
tats y u r choosing it now... XD

RIDICULOUS ME

okie...ends up i still loving my blog...i am back...cnt live without my blog...
juz wan to release my damnfuxkingmood here..
1st , congraz to me... i got food poisoning again... suffering stomach fever + vomit now~ GREAT~
2nd, shit bloody lecturer keep on pushing us to the dead corner , keep on scare us tat she will fail us..
SO? i dun wan fail , but how can i continue my design work in such a damn situation...i cnt even lie down on my bed, once i lie down , all those foods will quickly PUKE OUT !!
tell me Lord , dun make joke on me ,k ? i dun wan such miserable life , coz i still believe in tat i LOVE design..
everytime my life come to down point , i will think on u , and angry on u ..sorry..tis topic never ends but tis kind of feeling juz cnt go away from me.,, :(

REST IN PEACE....

MY BLOG DIED..

LEERIE WAS DIED..

TEMPORARY CLOSED...

OR MIGHT BE A LONG-TERM CLOSED..

THIS GONNA BE MY STORY ~~ XD

www.this-is-my-story.com/v/L48Z8NKKQX7V

i love OHANA~

I JUZ TRYING HARD TO HAVE SOME MADNESS

 k~thx GOD~

2day wasn't a MOODYGLOOMYDAY for me..

at 1st,

my work r praised by lecturer who is reli strict n owes with high demand~

and i did score a quiet high mark too~ :)

2nd,

did called mum after class to show off my mark to her like a little kid, and talked abt 2 hours..

with laugh n tears..

mum encourage me to keep moving on , btw dun push myself too stress..

i felt guilty to mum , always...feels like owe her a lot..

she owes worry abt every single family member..

actually she is stress..even more than me n others..

we never thk tat tis thingy might happens on us...

but we trust tat everything happens for a reason..mayb it's our fate from Lord..

she try to cheers...and me too

she try to pray...and me too

dear Lord...we really need u indeed..

anyway..i will try my part to defend my lovely ohana~

and here to all readers...do think on others feeling while u do something tats reli hurts..especially u done tis to those who reli precious n special...

babies..dun leave me alone..

recently me..

eat alone..

drive alone..

do assignment alone..

shopping alone..

walking alone..

laugh alone..

cry alone..

mad alone..

someone juz leave me alone by dumped me tons of bullshits..

someone juz dumped me after used me..

someone juz dumped me without a reason..

someone juz dumped me without explaining to those who misunderstanding me..

someone juz want to make fun on me then keep telling others how fun n silly i am..

someone juz keep on planning and poking me at the back..

ain't TIRED??

i need frenz...but seems like everyone r busy on their own love+life..

i need family...but.. it seems like gonna collapse soon...

everyone have their own business...

and i juz a NOBODY TO CARE..

again... it is not a emo post...

i am telling a TRUTH..that i reli facing now..

kthxbye..

p/s: i juz wan my PEACE and PIECES back...tats it !

someday..♥

someday i gonna take my camie far away from here...
awaiting. .♥

:)

2day is white valentine??? SO WHAT?? ==

not gonna to talk abt the white valentine... love is truely suck for me now~

but...btw..thx my sweetie for blessed me happy white valentine~

   dun even n ever have a proper valentine b4~too bad~too sad~ ==

been stayed in a terrible mood for whole day~

thx for my sweetie pie webcaming wif me~

i reli need to get a way out..

thou u didn't say much words to comfort me..but it is truely enuff for me with u silly LMAO facesss~~ XD

keep on using her macbook's special effects~~ =.=  lolz~

hello~i am little cubid~~ left side got one car , right side got one car , both of the cars crush my face , so my face look so CUBE like tis~~~hahahahahahahahsss~~XD

TIS ONE RELI LMAO !!!!!!! wakakakakakakakakkaakka~~XD

laugh till faint~~

hello~ i am Ms.Bald~~~~

dun blamed me for sharing these pixess as public~~wakakaka~

who ask u done tis in front on me~~XD

anyway~~thx to u~

remind me wats the most important....remind me need to be stronger...i reli dun wan to be a moody baby..but things juz keep on happens like tis...i have no way to run away...big cheers for me...and u... :)

i am not emo , i juz a little bit too sad..

where shun i start on tis post?

abt my past life ? clear all those misunderstanding from others?? personal fuxking problemSS??

my past life_juz let it go

misunderstanding_up to u

personal fuxking problem_fuxk off !!!

no one reli knows the real situation, so i wont blame u n what u ever done on me...

one word
_

HAPPY GO LUCKY !!!

cheers!!!!

add on: 2day go for church~ felt reli joyful & happy..thx Lord~i come back to u again.. hope tat i will keep on :)

after that go for blood donation with bro in church~

too bad~i failed with too low blood pressure+weight ~ 

nope~==

PLAN C STARTING_GAIN WEIGHT !!!

the truth is i reli reli get speechless about tis..

tell me God what am i gonna do..
i hope tat u reli can cure tis situation..
i juz want PEACE..
no more troublesome shitty stuffss...
ya..i am confuse.
ya..i am lost.
ya..i wont tell u wat i facing now
coz blog is the way i release my speechless feeling..
all i want is get the PEACE back right now for me..but it seems like everyting goes wrong n truely wrong...it shun't end like tis...plz.. :(

变质。。

 当想法变了质。。

 当友情变了质。。

当生活变了质。。

容许我保留剩下的自我。。

我需要这样的动力继续一个人的生活。。   

一半也可以完整。。

该放下的我已经放下了，该误解不该误解的人，就请你自便。

喜欢一个人开车时听这首歌～

back to impossible date..

i am touched while listening to tis song...for me..its a sad song..i juz cnt stop clicking the 'replay'

it's impossible for me to go back on tat time..to turn around & make it right..

taylor swift !!! U GOT ME !!!!

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me, how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up, and I know why

Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses, and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time

These days, I haven't been sleeping
Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed, and I didn't call

Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came, the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

This is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time, all the time